HELP ME GET OVER YOU: The first time I actually heard this song was when I woke up from a dream of him - in a bus while I’m standing in so many strange faces. From then, when I get back in Bicol, I searched the lyrics immediately. It’s like the song was made for me. And I haven’t thought that the song was an OST of My Husband’s Lover Teleserye of GMA TV. So it’s like, okay… this song was really made for me. This is for my heart. And whenever I hear this song, I feel like there’s a sudden crack in my fragile heart. This song speaks in behalf of me… to the only guy I ever loved so much that has loved someone else. It’s funny how broken hearts can be shattered into pieces and still love into its depth. I hope there’s a magic in every song. Or a miracle will do..
Dearest Toothpick –
I woke up last Saturday with a glimpse of my dream. I saw you in my dreams as I was hoping that everything that happened was real. In my dreams, we were together… happy, contented. I was wondering if how does it happen that you suddenly appeared in my dream. You usually don’t do barging in my dreams every night. And I hated the fact that after that dream, I woke up missing you.
I tried not to think of it that day but the day itself won’t let me. When I got in a bus that very day, as I was standing around the crowded people, the bus’ radio keep on playing songs about love and broken-heart. And the thoughts of you keep on lingering under my nose from that day… until now.
How melancholic it is to think of you out of nowhere? From a place that is so far away, surrounded by crowded people and tall buildings. Yet I’m still thinking of one person only; the one person that I truly love. You.
I should’ve just got over you and everything that we’ve been through. I don’t know what to feel anymore. I only feel the purity of this love, the genuine feeling of loving… just loving without expecting in return. But is everything worth it? That each time I feel like missing you, it’s always just me. It’s always one-sided. The fact that each time you entered my dreams, I always wish not to wake up anymore.
How I wish that, if I wish for you over and over and over again to Him consistently, He’ll finally grant that wishes of mine. But it doesn’t always work that way. And it’ll never be.
I guess for now, all I can do is to love you over and over and over again… consistently. That’s all this heart can do. And if ever one day, I woke up not dreaming of you, not wanting you anymore, know that I will always love you forever. ALWAYS.